One of the arguments that queer members of the Church
often make is that the current policies and doctrines of the Church are harmful
and that they do not feel loved or accepted as a result. In light of prophetic infallibility
in matters of Church governance, the answer to this should be: tough luck. God
and his mouthpieces are in no way obligated to spare you any pain. If anything,
it’s inevitable that you’ll suffer a lot. For anyone who thinks that God wants
you to be healthy, happy, and whole, you should probably reread Mark 9:43-48.
Jesus had no mercy for extenuating circumstance:
If thy hand offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter into life maimed, than having two hands to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched... And if thy foot offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter halt into life, than having two feet to be cast into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched... And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye, than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire: where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
In other words, if your sexuality is impure, cut it out,
mangle it, destroy it. If you suffer intense emotional trauma, if you want to
kill yourself, if you can barely function through the pain and loneliness that
such a sacrifice causes, remember that it is better for you to enter into the
kingdom of God as a broken, shattered mess than to be cast into hell fire.
Obedience is all that matters; your well-being does not. As general authorities
often repeat from the Lectures
on Faith:
Let us here observe, that a religion that does not require the sacrifice of all things never has power sufficient to produce the faith necessary unto life and salvation; for, from the first existence of man, the faith necessary unto the enjoyment of life and salvation never could be obtained without the sacrifice of all earthly things.
Obey. You don’t have to like it. It doesn’t have to be
good for you. You just have to do it.
Now, lest those who do not deal with LGBTQ issues nod
their heads and sagely apply this counsel, let’s remember that they too are
under the same stringent requirement of absolute obedience. Do you really know
what that means? President Monson could issue a proclamation tomorrow on any
topic and you would be bound to follow it. He could demand the assassination of
Donald Trump, and we would have to pull the trigger. He could declare genocide
on everyone in the state of Nevada, and we would have to take up arms and enact
the slaughter of every man, woman, and child. He could ask that all members
murder their own children, and if we wished to stand by the prophet, we would
each need to hold the pillow over our babies’ mouths until they stopped
breathing.
“But the Prophet would never command such a thing!” you
might say. Actually, God already has (1 Nephi
4:12-13; 1
Samuel 15:3; Genesis
22:2). They are known as Abrahamic sacrifices, and President
Nelson has recently reminded us that we are all called upon to make these
sacrifices in our lives. Abrahamic sacrifices are when we suspend our own moral
compass because we trust that God knows better; we sacrifice what is most
precious to us, even when such a sacrifice may be illegal or immoral. We must
be willing to commit any atrocity in obedience to God and his prophets, so that like Caesar's soldier, we can say:
If you bid me bury my sword in my brother's breast or my father's throat or the body of my pregnant wife, I will perform it all, even if my hand be reluctant.
We need to tear away this facade of love and happiness in the Gospel and recognize that it is cruel, harsh, and unyielding. And yet that does not necessarily make it invalid. It is the way things are, and we do not have the option of changing it. We can only choose to make the sacrifice or reject it.
Are you truly willing to completely sublimate your own
will and place it in President Monson’s hands, or even in God’s? It is a
question of faith. Because after enduring all this suffering, the promise is
that God will make it all better in the next life. Obey unconditionally, and
all suffering, including the suffering of our conscience, will eventually be
removed and healed. Dostoevsky
famously had his character Ivan reject salvation that was built on the
suffering of innocents, even a temporary suffering:
I don't want harmony. From love for humanity I don't want it. I would rather be left with the unavenged suffering. I would rather remain with my unavenged suffering and unsatisfied indignation, even if I were wrong. Besides, too high a price is asked for harmony; it's beyond our means to pay so much to enter on it. And so I hasten to give back my entrance ticket, and if I am an honest man I am bound to give it back as soon as possible. And that I am doing. It's not God that I don't accept, only I most respectfully return him the ticket.
So here are questions I cannot answer. Do we trust God and
his prophet? Will they make it all worthwhile? And if they do, is it morally
justifiable to perpetuate suffering at their behest? Dare we trust our own moral
compass over God’s commands?
If I personally find it abhorrent, which I do, to even think about killing someone, I am not going to follow any prophet who tells me to do that, even if it is the prophet of the Church. If Heaven wants to then condemn me because I was not "obedient", so be it. I am NOT going to kill anyone just because someone tells me to.
ReplyDeleteTrue. I would say that God doesn’t ask us as individuals to kill anyone. With the exception of a couple prophets (Nephi, Abraham). God doesn’t really tell prophets to tell us to kill people, with the possible exception of some Old Testament era wars where it’s a matter of military strategy. Usually, God will tell people to be patient and He will take care of their enemies.
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